Bad Directions, Pumpkins and Ice Cream

Well, the court date looms closer. No new problems have arrived. Next step is to tell my ex's attorney that I have a new address in state. It should make a huge difference in me being able to get my son back. They knew that I moved, but I never told them exactly where. Safety first, you know. I told my attorney who told his attorney, who told my ex, who told my son. That way my son could start asking and my ex could find me. Ha Ha. I am NOT telling a 10 year old anything. He will let things slip, even if he doesn't mean to. I didn't want my ex, or his friends, to be able to find me before I was ready.

Now my attorney is mailing the whatever it is that he has to file to show my new address in state. That means that within a week or so, my ex will have my address. He will come to find me or send his friends to.

Haha on him again. They will never find it. They re-routed the road that I live on a few years ago and apparently the change doesn't show up on the maps or GPS. We couldn't even find it when we were trying to look at the house to rent. We had to call for directions from the owner. My mom has GPS, and hers gave the wrong directions too. Of course, that doesn't mean he won't find it, but it won't be easy for him! They probably also aren't counting on the fact that we already alerted the landlord that lives directly in front of us and our other neighbors to the fact that he will be looking for me.

My landlord has about 100 acres and five houses on the property. We all get along really well, and they don't take to kindly to the idea that someone may want to come here and start trouble. And between all of us, someone is always home. Someone will always be around to see if someone comes up the driveway. That will put a damper on their plans!

My mom and I both had "stuff" happen to our vehicles when I lived up in Illinois. We know it was them, but of course proving it was a little difficult. Now, if they come around to mess with my car again, they will get caught. That would be nice to have them caught red-handed.

Of course, I realize that they may never come here and that I am just over-reacting. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I am jumping to conclusions about their behavior. Maybe their past behavior will not be in indication of their future behavior. Yeah, right.

Creepy has not been creepy lately. He has been thoroughly enjoying our visits. He is still not talking on the phone too much, but I don't worry about that as much now that he is having more fun and enjoying his time with me again. We went to the local pumpkin patch this past weekend and had a great time. Then we went and got ice cream. It was a beautiful weekend and we both had a lot of fun.

I have one more weekend visit and one holiday visit before the hearing. Keep your fingers crossed.

You Want Another Update? Here Ya Go

I have a court date and a very bad feeling. See, we have been trying unsuccessfully to get this court date for a while, and it myseriously kept getting "lost" or "now unavailable". The judge ruled against me last time on some stupid technicalities that my lawyer should have been smart enough to see coming. He wasn't. Smart enough, I mean. So now with my new attorney, we should be able to be ready for the "forseeable" issues. Except the judge is already hassling my atty over just getting the court date. That does not bode well for me. I think that, even after all the visits I have made and all the effort and money my family and I have put into all of this, I will not get my son back after all. Because of a crooked judge.

I am not really looking for a pity party or anything. I have kind of had a bad feeling about my situation for a while, but nothing I could put my finger on. Then when I called my mom with the update about the court date and difficulties getting it, she said she had a bad feeling, too. I think I have been fighting a losing battle. But fight I will. I will continue to try to get my son home no matter what odds are stacked against me. Do I feel like I am going to win? No. Will I ever give up? Not a chance. And maybe feeling like I am not going to win is a good thing. I am not sure that I could handle feeling like we were going to win, only to lose when we get to court. I think it would rip my heart right out of my chest and kill me dead right then and there. Scratch that... I know it would. If I go in thinking that we will lose because of ole crooked judge, and I actually do win, then I won't have to be disappointed.

 I think the disappointment is harder to take than anything. I would rather be resigned to loss than to endure another day of that judge looking at me saying blah blah blah technicality blah blah, can't move the child.

Here's keeping my fingers crossed that the good guys will prevail, the guys in the white hats will win, that evil will be taken down. You know, all that good guys are the best stuff.

Update

I am still alive. We are still trying to get my boy home. All the papers have been filed, all the depositions completed, all the information has been subpeaoned. Is that a word? Or spelled right? We are now waiting on our court date. Supposedly it will be in September sometime towards the end. Right now, I am as tense as can be. This waiting is for the birds. Our visits are mostly ok, although Creepy has been a little quiet and stressed. He says there is nothing he wants to talk about even when I press. I just hope his dad hasn't talked him into wanting to stay with him. He does tell me that he still wants to come home, so I hope he means it. Hopefully, he wants to come home still when we go to court. That would be really sucky to get to court only to hear him say that he changed his mind because his dad buys him lots of toys to stay there. Hope all is well with you guys out there in blogger-land. I will post when we have more news

My eye problem? Turns out it was sinus issues. I got a headache Tuesday night. That morphed into the devil headache Wednesday morning. MM was a little worried. I take that to mean I looked like cat puke. By lunchtime, I was ready to go home. I thought I was going to hurl. MM came to get me and I went home and went to bed.

When I woke up three hours later, I had so much sinus pressure, I had blurry vision. MM went and got me some sinus medicine. I love sinus medicine, it's my new boyfriend. I didn't feel great, and there was still some pressure, but all in all, I finally felt like I might survive this attack of devil sinuses.

By this morning, I felt much better. Even my eye has stopped hurting. Stupid eye. Next time it hurts I will pay attention and buy some sinus meds. Especially since the last time I bought sinus medicine it expired before I needed it again. I get a sinus headache and pressure like every two or three years. I think this one was good enough for at least five years. Damned sinuses. I really feel bad for you folks that suffer with sinus issues all the time. But at least if you know you have problems, you can keep your sinus medicine boyfriend handy all the time.

Ham. Phones. Eyes. Random Tuesday Thoughts

It's Random Tuesday. I'm not sure these are even enough to be considered full thoughts, so we'll just stick with Random Tuesday.

I have something going on with my eye. It's not pink eye or any kind of infection as far as I can tell. It's just a little puffy and teary. And it HURTS. Like, been taking excedrin for several days hurts.

I love Subway. Black Forest Ham. mmmmmm

I'm gonna brag for a minute here, bear with me. I got another compliment on my weight loss last night. My friend said I was looking down right skinny. Yea me!

Today, I sit here and eat Lay's potato chips. Probably won't do much for the keeping the weight off, huh.

I don't owe any more money to my attorney. At least not this week. They said I was paid up. For now. I'm sure that will change soon.

My son was cleaning at his dad's house last night. I want my cheap labor back. Then I can be lazy and get bon-bons and gain all my weight back.

I broke another cell phone. That makes three in less than a year. I really should get the insurance. Ooops.

Moving makes me crazy. And it's expensive.

That about sums up what's rolling around in my head here. Now go check out Keely over at The Un Mom and check out all the other random shit. And don't forget to play along. And comment.

What About That?

I have read several blogs lately that have talked about change. As in change in their lives. Big changes you notice immediately. Small changes that you don't even know changed the course of your life until later, upon reflection.

I think spring is a good time for reflection on your life, and a great time for implementing changes. It is a time to start fresh. A time to let yourself bloom. We can all be flowers. We need to open ourselves up to the change that happens to us. If you want things to change in your life, you need to figure out what it is exactly that you want to change. Sit down, write it out, visualize it.

I know that there are many things in my life I want to change. I am getting ready to make some big life changes. I will be quitting my job, moving, starting another job, hopefully getting my son back home, and getting married. All by the end of this year. These are all major life changes.

But it will be the small changes and decisions that I make that will make the most difference. Obviously moving and a new job will have an effect, but I see that coming. I can prepare for it. The things I can't prepare for are the ones that will have the most profound effect on me. The ones I don't see coming will be the ones that could throw me for a loop. These are the ones that define a person.

I hope that I can respond to the new differences in my life with tact. Mostly. I hope that I can be calm and collected. What I hope most, though, is that the life changes don't break me down, or defeat me.

How do you deal with the life changes that are thrown your way? You know, the little ones that change the course of your life, but you didn't see it coming? Are you strong and decisive, or have you let them defeat you before coming to terms with them?

Baseball and Apple Pie: RTT

It's RTT! Go check out Keely at The UnMom for more random.

I was talking with some other moms this weekend. I have now fully realized just how happy I am to have a boy. One of the women had four boys only and the other woman had all boys, then finally had a girl last. And holy cow, her stories matched stories from Drama Girl. All girls must be pretty similar. I know they all aren't, cuz Baby Girl is more like Destructo Girl. She is a total daredevil and like to take things apart. That is my kind of girl.

Both of the girls like flowers. They like the kind from a flower shop and the kind they can plant into the ground. I think that Creep likes flowers and veggies and things that he can plant. He likes to garden, and so do the girls.

I know that Creep believes in unicorns, and I don't know if the girls even know what a unicorn is. I will have to ask them. Destructo Girl will say she believes whatever Drama Girl believes in. She loves her big sister.

I saw a post earlier today about underwear. I have decided I do not have enough underwear. I am forever doing more laundry so I can have more clean ones. I need to hit of VS for more of those sexy and comfy undies.

Creep seems to be doing okay. He is playing baseball. He seems to like it okay. He got cut from one team and put on another, but seems okay with that. He says he did not like the first coach and says he does like the new coach he has.

I really don't have anything to say about apple pie. I do like it though. Especially home made apple pie.

That's all Folks!