My eye problem? Turns out it was sinus issues. I got a headache Tuesday night. That morphed into the devil headache Wednesday morning. MM was a little worried. I take that to mean I looked like cat puke. By lunchtime, I was ready to go home. I thought I was going to hurl. MM came to get me and I went home and went to bed.

When I woke up three hours later, I had so much sinus pressure, I had blurry vision. MM went and got me some sinus medicine. I love sinus medicine, it's my new boyfriend. I didn't feel great, and there was still some pressure, but all in all, I finally felt like I might survive this attack of devil sinuses.

By this morning, I felt much better. Even my eye has stopped hurting. Stupid eye. Next time it hurts I will pay attention and buy some sinus meds. Especially since the last time I bought sinus medicine it expired before I needed it again. I get a sinus headache and pressure like every two or three years. I think this one was good enough for at least five years. Damned sinuses. I really feel bad for you folks that suffer with sinus issues all the time. But at least if you know you have problems, you can keep your sinus medicine boyfriend handy all the time.

Ham. Phones. Eyes. Random Tuesday Thoughts

It's Random Tuesday. I'm not sure these are even enough to be considered full thoughts, so we'll just stick with Random Tuesday.

I have something going on with my eye. It's not pink eye or any kind of infection as far as I can tell. It's just a little puffy and teary. And it HURTS. Like, been taking excedrin for several days hurts.

I love Subway. Black Forest Ham. mmmmmm

I'm gonna brag for a minute here, bear with me. I got another compliment on my weight loss last night. My friend said I was looking down right skinny. Yea me!

Today, I sit here and eat Lay's potato chips. Probably won't do much for the keeping the weight off, huh.

I don't owe any more money to my attorney. At least not this week. They said I was paid up. For now. I'm sure that will change soon.

My son was cleaning at his dad's house last night. I want my cheap labor back. Then I can be lazy and get bon-bons and gain all my weight back.

I broke another cell phone. That makes three in less than a year. I really should get the insurance. Ooops.

Moving makes me crazy. And it's expensive.

That about sums up what's rolling around in my head here. Now go check out Keely over at The Un Mom and check out all the other random shit. And don't forget to play along. And comment.

What About That?

I have read several blogs lately that have talked about change. As in change in their lives. Big changes you notice immediately. Small changes that you don't even know changed the course of your life until later, upon reflection.

I think spring is a good time for reflection on your life, and a great time for implementing changes. It is a time to start fresh. A time to let yourself bloom. We can all be flowers. We need to open ourselves up to the change that happens to us. If you want things to change in your life, you need to figure out what it is exactly that you want to change. Sit down, write it out, visualize it.

I know that there are many things in my life I want to change. I am getting ready to make some big life changes. I will be quitting my job, moving, starting another job, hopefully getting my son back home, and getting married. All by the end of this year. These are all major life changes.

But it will be the small changes and decisions that I make that will make the most difference. Obviously moving and a new job will have an effect, but I see that coming. I can prepare for it. The things I can't prepare for are the ones that will have the most profound effect on me. The ones I don't see coming will be the ones that could throw me for a loop. These are the ones that define a person.

I hope that I can respond to the new differences in my life with tact. Mostly. I hope that I can be calm and collected. What I hope most, though, is that the life changes don't break me down, or defeat me.

How do you deal with the life changes that are thrown your way? You know, the little ones that change the course of your life, but you didn't see it coming? Are you strong and decisive, or have you let them defeat you before coming to terms with them?

Baseball and Apple Pie: RTT

It's RTT! Go check out Keely at The UnMom for more random.

I was talking with some other moms this weekend. I have now fully realized just how happy I am to have a boy. One of the women had four boys only and the other woman had all boys, then finally had a girl last. And holy cow, her stories matched stories from Drama Girl. All girls must be pretty similar. I know they all aren't, cuz Baby Girl is more like Destructo Girl. She is a total daredevil and like to take things apart. That is my kind of girl.

Both of the girls like flowers. They like the kind from a flower shop and the kind they can plant into the ground. I think that Creep likes flowers and veggies and things that he can plant. He likes to garden, and so do the girls.

I know that Creep believes in unicorns, and I don't know if the girls even know what a unicorn is. I will have to ask them. Destructo Girl will say she believes whatever Drama Girl believes in. She loves her big sister.

I saw a post earlier today about underwear. I have decided I do not have enough underwear. I am forever doing more laundry so I can have more clean ones. I need to hit of VS for more of those sexy and comfy undies.

Creep seems to be doing okay. He is playing baseball. He seems to like it okay. He got cut from one team and put on another, but seems okay with that. He says he did not like the first coach and says he does like the new coach he has.

I really don't have anything to say about apple pie. I do like it though. Especially home made apple pie.

That's all Folks!

Babies and Big Boys

Well, I spent last weekend with Creep again. It was beautiful weather. We went to the campgrounds and got a campsite. I put up the tent and got out the chairs and his bike. We walked around the campgrounds. Well, I walked and he rode. The lazy little creep could not even ride his bike as far as I could walk. He kept telling me how tired he was. I swear if it weren't for the sports he plays down at his dad's he would be a couch potato. Actually he is a couch potato except when he is at practice or the games.

Anyway, we lounged in the sunshine. We watched some movies, we napped. All in all, it was a fun and relaxing weekend. No creepiness at all. He still doesn't want to talk on the phone at night when I call, but the visits are improving again. I think maybe he had spring fever and just needed to have someone to spend some time outside with. I like to play outside too, so it was no stretch for me to be out there with him.

We also spent a lot of time just talking. Not about anything major, or even anything important. Just chatting, and making sure that I listened. He tells me frequently that no one listens to him or looks at him when he is talking. I try really hard to make sure that he has my full attention when we are together. I want him to know and feel that he is important. Not just because I am his mom, but because he is important as a person. He has value, other than just being my child. He has value, and has his own opinions, and he can share them with me. I don't have to agree with him, and he knows that. It was just really nice to be able to talk and chat about nothing of consequence. Sort of like the dinner chat that can sometimes be heard around the dinner table.

It was really hard to take him back on Sunday evening. The visit had gone so well, and we both enjoyed ourselves so much, that neither of us wanted the day to end. Of course he did not want to talk on the phone when I called. I can deal with that though, if we can continue to connect on the visits.

I really need to get out the camera agian and get some pictures to put up here. He is growing up so fast. He looks totally different than he did when he was home last. He doesn't have even the slightest of baby-ness to his face now. And boy is he getting tall.

How about you mom's(or auntie's or cousins) out there, have you ever turned around and a little one was no longer little? Like they grew up suddenly when you weren't looking?

Well, How Was It?

I hope you had a good Easter holiday. Mine was pretty good. I spent the day with Creep. He was not too much of a creep. He only had a short amount of time that he was creepy. We spent the entire day at the park. I am still tired. I think I wore him out too though, so it's all good. Creep was in a pretty good mood all day. He laughed a lot and joked around, and had me laughing too.

All in all, it was a great day. We played baseball, I watched him shoot some hoops. We watched a movie on the dvd player. We played cars and transformers. We played on the swings. We played pokemon. Hell, reading that, no wonder I am tired. But what a beautiful day it was, and what an awesome reason to be worn out.

So, how did your Easter go? Anything exciting?

He Speaks

I have posted many times that I call my son every night. I have also posted recently that he won't talk to me anymore on the phone. I asked him over the weekend why he wasn't talking on the phone anymore. The answer was a vague "I don't like to talk on the phone anymore". No particular reason why, just don't. I let it go figuring he would either share more or move past whatever faze this was.

Well, last night, wonder of wonders, he talked to me for the whole time allowed. He was very chatty, and friendly even. When it was time to go, by orders not choice, he was actually sad to have to hang up. This made me feel much better than I have for a long time. I felt like he was pulling away from me. After last night, I know that is not exactly what he is doing. He might be some for the sake of "showing" his dad he his, but he does still want to talk to me and want to hear what I have to say. I feel better. Now, hopefully, he will continue to talk to me as the nights unfold in the next few weeks (or months) until this is all settled and I can talk to him every day, face to face.